This summer my quest has been to figure out exactly that. There have been a few times in my life where I thought I’d found it, and perhaps for those periods of time I had – but right now in this moment, I am at a loss as to what I want my future contributions to look like, what I’m supposed to be doing, so I concentrate on my present.
In order to really clear the path for change and upping the spiritual ante, I have had to stop entirely. I’m taking the summer off. I can’t really recall the last time I took an extended period of time off. I’ve BEEN off, but I’ve never actually rested with the intention to rest. I feared if I didn’t do this now, I may be in my eighties one day and realise I worked my life away and entirely missed the point.
Whenever I find myself sinking back in to work mode (which is terribly easy, in fact almost impossible to avoid) I can hear my angels pleading with me to stop. Going within and finding stillness is clearly one of the hardest things for me to do. I can cope with it for minutes at a time before I start strategising my next move. And again the angels plead.
I can almost hear them saying ‘We’ve given you everything you need to just BE for a period of time, in fact making it clear how necessary it was, and what happens? Your busy ungrateful mind, endlessly asking Why? What if? When? It’s ok to just stop, we’ve got your back’.
And I feel like they’ve got my back – it’s part of the overall good fortune that has been bestowed upon me, even at times when I didn’t feel worthy of it. But that in itself is thinking too much about it.
I think if we were all to find a moment to hear the angels call – we’d find we’re all being asked to just stop and fill ourselves with gratitude for the sheer wonder of life on earth, gratitude for each other and gratitude for a period of rest.
In stillness we find most of what we lust after are just distractions from ourselves. Many of us run from ourselves for our entire existence here on earth, missing the point entirely. And the angels plead.
Wishing you a week of quiet contemplation.