Angels Pleading

I am blessed. I know I’m blessed. At times I feel guilty for the sheer good fortune in my life. A guru once implied to me this is the unfortunate part of being fortunate, until you understand what you’re supposed to be doing with your good fortune. Many miss the point entirely.

This summer my quest has been to figure out exactly that. There have been a few times in my life where I thought I’d found it, and perhaps for those periods of time I had – but right now in this moment, I am at a loss as to what I want my future contributions to look like, what I’m supposed to be doing, so I concentrate on my present.

In order to really clear the path for change and upping the spiritual ante, I have had to stop entirely. I’m taking the summer off. I can’t really recall the last time I took an extended period of time off. I’ve BEEN off, but I’ve never actually rested with the intention to rest. I feared if I didn’t do this now, I may be in my eighties one day and realise I worked my life away and entirely missed the point.

Whenever I find myself sinking back in to work mode (which is terribly easy, in fact almost impossible to avoid) I can hear my angels pleading with me to stop. Going within and finding stillness is clearly one of the hardest things for me to do. I can cope with it for minutes at a time before I start strategising my next move. And again the angels plead.

I can almost hear them saying ‘We’ve given you everything you need to just BE for a period of time, in fact making it clear how necessary it was, and what happens? Your busy ungrateful mind, endlessly asking Why? What if? When? It’s ok to just stop, we’ve got your back’.

And I feel like they’ve got my back – it’s part of the overall good fortune that has been bestowed upon me, even at times when I didn’t feel worthy of it. But that in itself is thinking too much about it.

I think if we were all to find a moment to hear the angels call – we’d find we’re all being asked to just stop and fill ourselves with gratitude for the sheer wonder of life on earth, gratitude for each other and gratitude for a period of rest.

In stillness we find most of what we lust after are just distractions from ourselves. Many of us run from ourselves for our entire existence here on earth, missing the point entirely. And the angels plead.

Wishing you a week of quiet contemplation.

 

2 comments

  • Jody Nelson

    Jody Nelson

    Beautiful Carrie, and it certainly resonates with me. Going within and finding stillness is something that I am working very hard to accomplish.I too can manage it for brief moments before the entire world floods in and I am once again living in this hectic sort of whirlwind that has become my norm. I suppose that the biggest obstacle of becoming still is that every fiber of my being has gotten very used to constant thought and movement and action and when I do stop for moments at a time my body reacts badly as the stillness is very foreign to me.I have been told on so many occasions by so many people that I need to relax,to rest... mind, body and spirit. (I am the girl that got got asked after 2 classes to leave and never come back to meditation class as I was to disruptive) I too was thinking that I was going to take the summer off, but my mind has gone to worries about the slow pace of it and just how would I handle a break? I envy people that can just sit in a lawn chair and soak up the sun and the surroundings, watch an entire movie or that can nap, without guilt. I am working towards these sorts of non activity activities....maybe I should follow your lead, sit back and let summer shine in. Blessings to you

    Beautiful Carrie, and it certainly resonates with me. Going within and finding stillness is something that I am working very hard to accomplish.I too can manage it for brief moments before the entire world floods in and I am once again living in this hectic sort of whirlwind that has become my norm. I suppose that the biggest obstacle of becoming still is that every fiber of my being has gotten very used to constant thought and movement and action and when I do stop for moments at a time my body reacts badly as the stillness is very foreign to me.I have been told on so many occasions by so many people that I need to relax,to rest... mind, body and spirit. (I am the girl that got got asked after 2 classes to leave and never come back to meditation class as I was to disruptive) I too was thinking that I was going to take the summer off, but my mind has gone to worries about the slow pace of it and just how would I handle a break? I envy people that can just sit in a lawn chair and soak up the sun and the surroundings, watch an entire movie or that can nap, without guilt. I am working towards these sorts of non activity activities....maybe I should follow your lead, sit back and let summer shine in. Blessings to you

  • Carrie

    Carrie

    Thanks Jody, Sending peace your way!

    Thanks Jody, Sending peace your way!

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