It's been a long time since I really took a look at what it is that makes me happy. My parents were working musicians, and by the age of five I was already working towards my life as a musician. It was not until I was in my thirties, after decades of the kind of work and life only those who have struggled to be a viable artist can relate to, that I realized I really wasn't very happy. Perhaps I had grown out of my musical aspirations. Perhaps I had to learn some lessons that I simply could not learn on the path I was on. Whatever the root cause, I decided to break from being creative and in essence, shut down my musical drive. I couldn't figure out how to live in this world with it, so I lived without it.
I am grateful for this time away from the struggle of being a starving artist, from spending months away from my friends and family, from those days wondering if I'd ever be inspired again. I am grateful because I have discovered, whilst I work hard at a corporate job, that I had been on the outside looking in, for my entire life. I like the view from inside. I like who I am inside.
It's 2009, I am wiser, I am happy - and, I'm creating again
Perhaps I'll be able to reconcile my past, excel at my present and explore my creative future this year. The struggle will be to find the right balance.
I wish you all a year of grace, compassion and creativity.
I am grateful for this time away from the struggle of being a starving artist, from spending months away from my friends and family, from those days wondering if I'd ever be inspired again. I am grateful because I have discovered, whilst I work hard at a corporate job, that I had been on the outside looking in, for my entire life. I like the view from inside. I like who I am inside.
It's 2009, I am wiser, I am happy - and, I'm creating again
Perhaps I'll be able to reconcile my past, excel at my present and explore my creative future this year. The struggle will be to find the right balance.
I wish you all a year of grace, compassion and creativity.